animalistic mind

        "animalistic mind"

(change is too laborious, I'm not tough enough, I'm fearful)

        I've been listening to lots of talks about the human mind and how it consists of a person (which is the thought) riding an animal (the animalistic desires such as eat, sleep, sex, etc.). When a person is stuck with a default setting and just go through the day with idling, or doing things that they're not meant or supposed to do, it's like losing control of the animal, the person riding it doesn't have much control of how the animal will act, thus leading to a person unable to pursue or unable to do tasks at hand, which then ends with lost. It's really just talking about the simple act correlating to basic human need, motivation and how do we fight the evolutionary features with a new one, in order to pursue what we aren't. Basically it's just about how we, each and every one of us, has this big worldview, our perception on reality, we have this idealism of how the world should be right, but then why are we too lazy to actually act it out, do the quests in order to bring that idealism to the world. And, it relates back to basic human need and human evolution. It's so interesting how in such seemingly banal part of, life really, could be such a fascinating topic to listen to and discuss, it's like how small decisions in our life really, without us realizing it, play not just a big one, but an important role to how ourlives then continue rolling, when I explain it, it might sound "well, duh, you don't say" but what's makes it surprising and interesting to me is that I could actually see it in my own life and its daily routine. And, when you're like me, a person who's really reactive to vibes of the environment, which then of course often times leads to idling, lost sense of purpose, laziness, even to the extent that I don't see the benefit and the reason for me to take a shower, unless if it's really bothering me (and it's pretty much dumb and careless of me how it doesn't bother me that I haven't taken a shower for days almost a week).

        Change is like an ultimate quest, one of the milestones to the other, change is like the grand, majestic, gate or heavy door that will lead us closer to objective reality, to the truth of the world, a doorway that opens and takes as out away from the little cramped room of our minds. Thus, why it is hard, for one need to acquire certain materials, tools and levels in order for one to have the power to open it. It is hard. It could harness intimidation that would scares away all the unworthy out of the battle ground, because it could ruin the purity of purpose beyond the gate. That intimidation will create fear in each and every one of living body that might speak in words of, "will I truly be able to get through this and change with this effort I'm doing?" which might make one feel the dismality of one's effort, while blindly forgetting the knowledge one has already known, "no matter how small, it is a moving progress". It is so important to keep that line as a mantra, as a counter-attack for a weakening spell came from out of the blue, but really discouraging us to believe the belief, to believe that we are progressing, we are changing, we often forgot because we tend to get trapped inside the default settings of what motivates and gives pleasure. It's what is called as being human. It is very normal to feel anxious, afraid, unsure, because that is part of the process of change, and it is totally fine if you feel that way, you just have to always remember that it is part of the package, calm yourself down and get on the ride. Then, at times you might again think, "will I actually make it? because I haven't been there", and for that remark, i would like to rebut, "but hey, lots of people have, despite the quirks and distinction of each and every human has, we still are pretty much the same at the core of being human, you are going to be fine, and those cranky condescending whispers are just a goo of myth, those aren't real, don't trust them, instead, trust you."

        All I want to say is basically, trust the process. Because, being anxious and fearful is part of that process, you being in that state, afraid and unsure is a sign that you are going towards change, you are changing. So, once again, take a few deep breathes, calm yourselves down, and restate in your head that "fear and anxiety is part of the change", reset your mind to a secure statement, words of fact, that "being afraid and unsure is a sign that you are going towards change, you are changing."